I’ve been watching a lot of shows on Netflix about hoarding and anxiety. I think a lot of people must struggle with keeping too many things and placing too much importance on things. I was surprised to find so many shows about it! The shows I’ve found so far are “Hoarders,” “Hoarding: Buried Alive,” “Obsessive” (it covers various types of anxiety), and “Clean House.”
Hoarding is often rooted in anxiety. I struggle with anxiety, and I admit that sometimes it’s pretty hard for me to throw away or get rid of certain things. For me it’s like things hold memories. . . they help me remember precious times of the past and give me something tangible to hold. They help make those times more real and bring back emotions that I experienced back then. Also, I really feel bad getting rid of something someone special has given me or even that belonged to someone special who is no longer alive. Things are part of history and have stories to tell. I have way too much clutter, but I praise God that I have grown and am learning to let go.
I have a family member who hoards, and from seeing how watching those shows I’ve learned some about how difficult it can be to overcome it. There isn’t a simple fix, but rather it takes a lot of work and help from a counselor can be crucial. Things can really burden us so much. They become special to us because we can hold on to them when people change and go away. . . they can become our security.
But the whole of idea of finding security in things is something that is just not real! Things cannot give us true security. Things are temporal — they are not lasting. It reminds me of Matthew 6:19-21:
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
I wrote the above quite awhile ago, a couple months ago maybe? Anyway, I’ll go ahead and post it to keep record of how I was feeling at that time. I haven’t been watching those shows lately. I’m not sure what happened, but I just quit! Now I’ve been watching “Monk” on Netflix, a show about a detective with a whole lot of phobias.
I wanted to explain why I have a picture of the porta-potties in the picture for this post. In an episode of “Obsessive” the therapist had a lady with OCD go into a porta-potty and stand in there and experience her anxiety and then touch the dirty (really filthy-looking) seat to show her that she would be able to get through her anxiety and be fine afterward. It sure made me cringe! It’s an amazing concept, though. . . going through what makes you experience anxiety and seeing that you can indeed live through it and come out on the other side a stronger person!! ♥
I am so excited to tell you that I drove on the freeway the other day. One of my fears is driving on the freeway, and my husband sat in the driver’s seat while I drove on the freeway for about ten minutes, and I got to where we were going! I drove on an “easy” one, but it’s a step, and I’m really excited about it.